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falcongrrl) wrote2006-09-19 12:16 am
falcongrrl) wrote2006-09-19 12:16 am
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Tonight--this morning--I am fidgety and awake, whether from anxiety or generic zoloft or illness or cold meds, I'm not sure. Maybe it's a combination of all of the above. I binged on chocolate graham crackers and milk--old, bad habits die hard, I guess. Now, in the aftermath of that, I'm not sure if I feel better or worse. Fuller, in any case, I suppose.
I can't put my finger on the root cause of it, either. I suspect that being sick does decrease my serotonin levels somehow--I've noticed issues with this before--but this is less depression and more just a foot-tapping, mindracing unease that I can't seem to shake.
I think some of it is from financial worry, some of it is the rejected job. Some of it is the overbooked weekend and logistics challenges, both during the weekend and before. Some of it is Daniel's birthday coming with nothing concrete planned for it - the party will be here, but that's about all I know.
I'm tired but not sleepy. I keep hoping that words will make it better, but they don't.
Best wishes to a cat whose spirit left this world today. Safe journeys, Spud. Thank you for all that you brought to my friend's life.
That's all for now, I guess.
I can't put my finger on the root cause of it, either. I suspect that being sick does decrease my serotonin levels somehow--I've noticed issues with this before--but this is less depression and more just a foot-tapping, mindracing unease that I can't seem to shake.
I think some of it is from financial worry, some of it is the rejected job. Some of it is the overbooked weekend and logistics challenges, both during the weekend and before. Some of it is Daniel's birthday coming with nothing concrete planned for it - the party will be here, but that's about all I know.
I'm tired but not sleepy. I keep hoping that words will make it better, but they don't.
Best wishes to a cat whose spirit left this world today. Safe journeys, Spud. Thank you for all that you brought to my friend's life.
That's all for now, I guess.