I don't know you well, having only just started reading your journal, but I really appreciate this post and wanted to comment on it.

I often feel just the way you describe here, both online and in my work and family life: not really fannish enough for fandom, not really a REAL geek like gamers and comics people who go to cons; not quite this, nor yet quite that.

I think it really is a part of the human condition to have periods when what we notice most are the ways in which we're not like the tribe, and to feel external to it. I suspect this may be more true, more often, for introverted types than for extroverts, and (speaking for myself) it gets more acute when I've been overexposed.

I hope you feel a little more whole soon.