From my point of view, you seem to have a better perspective on your body than many of the women who claim to be assured and comfortable. Recognizing that you camoflauge yourself is definitely an enlightened awareness. ;)

And, I think, dressing rooms are designed to make us feel completely inadequate--the harsh lights that accentuate every dimple and make curves look like bulges.

I'm sure you will look beautiful and embody Air and flight and beauty--you already exude it in your journal. :)