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We are all still sick. This thing is relentless. Dave's still home from work, and he never takes sick days.

I did get out yesterday to do some shopping, finally, and ordered a bunch of stuff from Amazon too. I'm fairly close to being done with it, actually. I spent a ton of money yesterday but bought for over 20 people.

I'm not really feeling part of the holiday spirit at all.

There are a few gifts this year that are special. There's something I got my stepmom that she's not expecting and will love. My stepdad's mom's caretaker (step-grandma has Alzheimer's) is getting something that I think she'll really like.

But many of the presents are just 'it's on their list so here it is buy it and check it off and let's go onto the next one' gifts.

Ah well. I'm sick. I should be gentle with myself.

It's hard. I'm still smarting over making a snarky comment and alienating a couple of people I thought were friends. So I'm not feeling gentle with myself. Still, I need to just let it go.

I keep thinking of Seuss's "How the Grinch Stole Christmas."

He hadn't stopped Christmas from coming. IT CAME!
Somehow or another it came, just the same.
It came without ribbons!
It came without tags!
It came without packages, boxes, or bags!

I'm trying to have faith that it will come. That when I look into my children's eyes shining on Christmas morning, something tender and essentially right about the holiday will be restored to me.

Until then, I'm just taking it day by day.

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My dear ladymerri just sent me the most adorable Christmas card and picture of her and her adorable family. :-D

Thank you so much!

I so needed this bit of Christmasy feeling.

*hugs*

twelve days of Christmas meme...

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