Drafts

May. 10th, 2026 09:31 am
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Perhaps it is the first step
across a dark, yawning chasm
or the feeling of hanging, lightly,
surrounded by nothing
(to catch you),
surrounded by everything
(to catch you),
leading you to focus on the breath
rushing through your lungs,
the landscape, flowing
through your bloodstream.
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Just Create - Ear Edition

May. 8th, 2026 07:55 pm
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What are you working on? What have you finished? What do you need encouragement on?
 
Are there any cool events or challenges happening that you want to hype?
 
What do you just want to talk about?
 
What have you been watching or reading?
 
Chores and other not-fun things count!
 
Remember to encourage other commenters and we have a discord where we can do work-alongs and chat, linked in the sticky.

4 ironies make a post

May. 7th, 2026 11:27 pm
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• I started a new migraine preventative midafternoon today, and about 5 minutes later got a headache, 🤕. Hopefully it’ll sort itself out by morning.

• I finally remembered to book the moving van today, yay for brain dumps! They seem to be the pen and paper equivalent of taking everything out of your purse and shaking it to find the keys you know are in there but can’t find. Sometimes you really do have to turn things off and back on again.

• I have started packing up the bathroom and the closet, and I feel less ready for the move than I did a few days ago? Dunno what that’s about.

• I feel better enough to work tomorrow, and am encouraging everyone to mask up bc even the illnesses out there that aren’t the flu and Covid are apparently still fucking miserable to have. Seriously, do not get this thing. I don’t even remember Tuesday, and Monday is real sketchy in some places but what I know of from my texts sent at the time is that I was “sleepy, groggy, dizzy, achey, cough-y, headaching, and cold. It’s like the seven dwarves of sick in here.”

Friday Five: Outdoorsy Edition

May. 7th, 2026 10:47 am
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From last week's [community profile] thefridayfive:

1. Do you like to spend time outdoors?
I am very much an I-would-live-outdoors-if-it-wouldn't-kill-me type of person. I love hiking and even just working around the yard, because there are so many interesting geological formations/plants/moss/grasses/trees/rocks/insects/birds/fungi/animals/etc. that make up our world, and I feel more at home/in awe when I'm among them. I genuinely love hiking any time of year (we just returned from a wonderful trip to Grandfather Mountain.). Unfortunately, I have a lot of outdoor allergies and other overactive immune conditions, so I have to manage my time outdoors carefully.

2. What is your favorite flower?
Hmm, this is tough. I really do adore sunflowers but also lilies, and orchids are a special kind of beautiful - especially the tiny wild ones that are often overlooked.

3. Any favorite warm weather activities?
Hiking, wading in streams, walking riverside, listening to thunderstorms. I do also appreciate occasional trips to the ocean to gaze at the beautiful blue-green Atlantic, feel the sand on my feet, and watch the ghost crabs and shore birds scurry about. I'm really fortunate to live in a place that gives me access to both ocean and mountains, within a few hours drive.

4. Have you ever kept a garden? If so, what did you grow?
We kept a small garden before moving to our current home which is on a heavily wooded lot which nearly full shade. We grew herbs (basil, fennel, dill, lavendar), tomatoes, peppers of all sorts, squash and zucchini. We tried a pumpkin on a whim. I do miss it from time to time and have been thinking about how/where to incorporate a small patch here. I currently have some herbs and small flowers in pots that I move about the yard as the seasons change.

5. Do you know how to swim?
Yes. Growing up my parents invested in one of those aboveground pools that are about 4-5 feet deep and built a deck to go around it. So in summers in middle school and high school I would spend many of my days out there. Not a huge amount of space but it gave me the means to swim and enjoy the water, and I spent a lot of time with my mom there. In college I took more formal swim lessons (was required for graduation, guess they didn't want their graduates to accidentally drown). I really enjoyed those as well as it taught me to better manage my breathing underwater.

I have survived!

May. 5th, 2026 08:41 am
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I am way behind on everything, but I am happy to report that our trip to the mountains was in fact very lovely and a huge success. The weather held and so we were able to complete our planned hike from the Grandfather Mountain Extension Trail to Calloway Peak, as well as go out the next day to check out trails on the east side of the park.

I am having troubling finding the weight of words to describe how amazing the hikes were. The trail to Calloway Peak is an advanced trail with lots of exposed ridgeline, slippery runs supported by cables, soooo much boulder scrambling, a "chute" that is a steep slide of rockface that involves hand-over-hand scrambling (that I failed to get photos of because I wanted to not die), and 17 ladders that help climbers along the trail and access the various peaks (MacCrae, Attic Window, Calloway), tunnels, and viewpoints along the way. Sometimes the ladders are vertical, sometimes they are horizontal, sometimes they have fun angles in the middle. Sometimes you are basically scrambling on hands and feet across the edge of a rock face with nothing between you and the wild glory of the Blue Ridge. (Side note: a very large number of rocks required hiking my feet well above hip height to scramble, so I am very glad for mobility exercises.) +4 )

The trail is breathtaking, but the work to get up it will teach you something about yourself. I have always loved climbing (trees, rocks, fences, you name it) but there were even moments here where I wondered briefly if I was in over my head. +2 )

My photos do not do it justice. There is so much fir that parts of the trail smell like Christmas, while early blooms of mountain laurel, bluots, sand myrtle, and jewelweed, among others, sprout around and through rocks. +1 )

We ended up climbing 2,191 feet of elevation to arrive at Calloway, which is 5,946 ft about sea level. We stopped to have lunch on MacCrae peak along the way, so it took us about 4 hours to reach Calloway - luckily we were able to scramble down at a much faster 2.5 hours, and we opted on that route to take the Underwild trail to avoid having to retreat down a few of the more challenging ladders in reverse. However, even the Underwild is its own beast of navigating trails that are little more than an assortment of rocks to pick through.

The view from Calloway Peak (5,946 ft above sea level)
The view from Calloway Peak

The full album of photos from the Grandfather Trail is here.

The next day we had been expecting rain and cold temperatures. The cold temperatures remained but the chance of rain dropped to zero, so we headed out to the pick up the east side trails via the Asusti and Tanawha trails, cutting over to the west on the Nuwati, south along the ridgeline on the Cragway until Flat Rock, and then looping back on the Daniel Boone Scout and Tanawha trails. The Asusti, Tanawha, and Nuwati trails reminded me very much of the creekside trails of Stone Mountain, but once we reached the Cragway we were in for another strenuous climb along a rocky ridgeline. That day was partly overcast, and as we climbed we would get warmer, then pause to bundle up as the winds picked up and the clouds cleared out. But the Cragway views looked almost autumnal, thanks to the early color of budding trees. It was hard to believe we were only about 2 miles from Calloway Peak.

A view from the Cragway - I love all the budding tree color!
A view of the colors of the Cragway.
+1" )

While this was a significantly easier hike (only about 700 ft of elevation gain), we still had lots of good opportunities to run around on rocky peaks, interspersed with groves of rhodendron and azalea. We stopped to have lunch along a Crag, before making our way to the next vista.+1" )

The Cragway eventually takes you to Flat Rock, which is, as promised, a large, flat rock overlooking the valley. Trees have grown up around it, but if you find the right spots you can still get a decent view. +2" )

The full album of photos from the Nuwati-Cragway-Tanawha loop is here.

We eventually made our way back to our cabin (which was also lovely, it sat on 12 acres and had a lovely little creek, many beautiful trees, including my favorite tulip populars, and even a perfect rock ledge of its own), where we were able to soak back in some warmth.

All in all, we felt very accomplished. For myself - I can't explain, but being in the mountains, surrounded by the wild...it always feels like coming home. The beauty there brings me to tears every time, and I just feel more a part of everything. There is also something to just soaking up nature and clean yummy mountain air and stretching your body in fun and challenging ways under the sun and clouds and sky. Especially with the one you love. We were sad to leave, but are still thinking about it and already thinking about our next big excursion. I may be talking about it a while.

May you be well, may you be loved, may you be at peace, may you find beauty in any given moment. ♥

The Golden Shadow

May. 4th, 2026 06:43 pm
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So in psychotherapy circles where Shadow work is a thing, one of the ways you get people to buy in on the difficult work is by identifying the “good”/adaptive/healthy parts of the self that got relegated to the unconscious and using them as, basically, bait. They are the carrot to the rest of the Shadow’s stick, the parts that people want and that keep them invested in the process. And by them I now, of course, mean us. Bc I am going to name all of the traits I had as a kid that I want back, damn it, and I’m going to try to integrate one of those traits every time I blog about Shadow work. Read more... )

April 2026 in Review

May. 4th, 2026 05:08 pm
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Health and Fitness

Eliyahu made sure I was conscientious about exercise this month: 23 times. Amusingly, despite Eliyahu insisting that we walk almost every day, Eliyahu is not good at all about exercise when they're at home. It's only while they're visiting me and I'm available to walk with them every day that they're diligent about it.

Diet was again a smidge better than usual; Eliyahu and I made seafood potatoes a few times while they were here. 

Dailies

Was pretty good at tracking these, though not particularly good at doing them. I drew 6 times, wrote 9 times, and edited 13 times. Reading picked up slightly, to 23 times.

Writing

Still making notes for Kingslayer, still haven't finished the outline. Notes file is around 10,000 words, so up another 2750. I don't think I even opened the file for A Dragon's Secret.

Business of Writing

Made some progress editing A Game to You. It's now at 30% done, up from 23% last month. Also, it's gotten much easier to convince myself to do editing at all, so that's useful.

Art

I finished the backlit Olive and only showed it to Maria because eh, whatever, she and I are the only people who care.

I didn't have any new fan art ideas so I worked on a landscape after that for the sake of drawing something. It's mostly finished but not very interesting.

Reading

After forgetting "Mistaken as the Monster Duke's Wife" existed for a few months because I hadn't subscribed to it (it's a Tapas webcomic), I hunted it down again and discovered that it had wrapped up. So I finished reading that. That was nice; a short one for a change, at 68 episodes. A few others had started new seasons and I read those: "The Falcon Princess" (which is into the denouement now), "The Little Saint and the Grand Duke of the North", and "I Shall Master This Family". I tried a few new ones. "I'm a Homebody but I Transmigrated into a Dark Captivity Novel" is cute, but it's only in the first season so there's not much there and I've only read 14 episodes so far.

Oh, and "Seducing the Monster Duke" (there are a lot of monster dukes and dukes of the north in romantasy manwha, it's a whole thing) finished. The second half was weaker than the first half, but this is a strong story with lovable main characters and a distinctive female lead who is often clever and assertive, and yet at times has what I can only describe as Big Orange Cat Energy. It works; she's clueless about certain things but not everything. The male lead is sweet and a green flag; I recommend this one.

"Just Kill Me Now" also concluded; this one is wild, just a very strange time-looping plot with both the male and female protagonists going back in time to repeat parts of the story, often together and both of them remembering. The initial premise is that the female protagonist just wants to die, so she keeps killing herself and looping back to before she killed herself, so it's not very effective. But it means that her perspective is pretty unusual for a protagonist.

"Isekai Maid" posted five episodes of recap, then put up one new episode in mid-April, and hasn't posted anything since. Alas. Waiting to see if we get some consistent new posting before I put in the energy to read the recap. Maybe too many of her readers are planning the same thing and low reader numbers dispirited the author for posting more. o_o;;;; It's so tough being the author and writer for a webcomic, don't blame her a bit.

Social

Eliyahu was here for all of April, and M visited for the last weekend of the month, just before Eliyahu left. Eliyahu and I also saw Envoy, Kage and Sophrani on every Friday but the last one, and went out to visit Envoy three additional times to watch Frieren. I even continued this pattern by seeing Envoy last Wednesday to watch a different anime.

So I was Very Social in April.

April Goal Scorecard

  • Provide care for Dad: Done! 
  • Enjoy Eliyahu's visit: Done! <3
  • Do April withdraw from brokerage and pay April bills: Done! yes I still need this to remind me to pay bills. Even though I only have two bills now.
  • Pay 1st quarter 2026 taxes: Done. I haven't had them refunded yet so hopefully this time they were applied to 2026 and not 2025. 
  • Complete one creative stretch goal: I finished 7%+ of A Game to You. Good enough!

April Stretch Goals

  • Track what I read: I updated my StoryGraph with the manwha I finished, even
  • Do some art: I did not do A Lot, but I am still on track for being able to do a 2026 art summary, so good enough.
  • Exercise 15+ times: still doing the thing!
  • Visit friends: So much of this. So much. At least relative to my baseline :D

May Goals

  • Provide care for Dad
  • Schedule COVID-19 booster for Dad
  • Do May withdraw from brokerage and pay May bills
  • Either contact an artist or start work myself on the cover for The Jewel-Strewn Night
  • Complete one creative stretch goal (can combine effort if I'm productive but scattershot) 

May Stretch Goals

  • Figure out middle and denouement for Kingslayer
  • Refine editing list for The Jewel-Strewn Night
  • Get A Game to You to 50% edited
  • Write 15,000 words of A Dragon's Secret
  • Check off 60 boxes on the bullet journal for writing/editing/drawing
  • Any of my other usual stretch goals

~

My stretch goals for this month are ambitious compared to what I've been actually doing for the last year+. But I need to get a move on if I'm to finish my (fairly modest) goal of "complete 5 writing/publishing stages". I have completed zero in the first 4 months of this year, so that's not going great. I kinda need to finish, like, one every seven  weeks for the rest of the year. If I can finish final edits on Jewel and get a cover for it, the layout stage is quick, so that'd be three. But I still need to do two other stages, like finishing the first draft of A Dragon's Secret or the Kingslayer outline or initial edits to A Game to You. I could do covers for unfinished or unedited draft if necessary. though. I have kind of a start on A Game to You's cover, but I don't think I'll be able to finish it to my satisfaction. Anyway, we'll see how it goes.

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https://shadowselfdiscovery.com/how-to-do-shadow-work

https://www.thetappingsolution.com/blog/vagus-nerve-tapping/

https://neurodivergentinsights.com/not-everything-needs-an-upside/

“Brains are survival engines, not truth detectors.” —-Peter Watts




In other news, I am sick but can’t sleep yet. It came on suddenly, so I’m not prepared for it, and that’s a failure to extrapolate on my part. Boo. At least we had Covid/Flu A/Flu B tests in the house? So it’s probably not those.

I am about to go scoot down the stairs on my butt like a toddler to get food. Maybe I will take a tote bag to load up and crawl back up with it. That sounds like a plan.

Good luck out there, and please mask up. This shit is rough and I’ve only been sick for two hours.

Ships that Pass in the Night

Apr. 30th, 2026 04:38 am
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Ships that Pass in the Night
By Paul Laurence Dunbar

Out in the sky the great dark clouds are massing;
I look far out into the pregnant night,
Where I can hear a solemn booming gun
And catch the gleaming of a random light,
That tells me that the ship I seek is passing, passing.

My tearful eyes my soul's deep hurt are glassing;
For I would hail and check that ship of ships.
I stretch my hands imploring, cry aloud,
My voice falls dead a foot from mine own lips,
And but its ghost doth reach that vessel, passing, passing.

O Earth, O Sky, O Ocean, both surpassing,
O heart of mine, O soul that dreads the dark!
Is there no hope for me? Is there no way
That I may sight and check that speeding bark
Which out of sight and sound is passing, passing?

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Apr. 29th, 2026 11:14 am
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My big leg scrape has mostly healed up and looks like, if it scars at all, it will be tiny. Yay!

Also: I put peach sweetener and a splash of cream in the sun tea from yesterday and it is so complex and lovely.

Also also: my head and body do not ache, and I feel okay to work later today.

It’s being a much better morning than the two previous days, and I hope your morning is equally delightful.

Friday Five: Dating Yourself Edition

Apr. 29th, 2026 09:08 am
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Getting to [community profile] thefridayfive late this week:

1. What decade did you attend/are you attending high school or college?
Mid-90s through early 2000s.

2. What clothing fashion from that time are you glad/do you wish went out of style?
Babydoll dresses. Every once in a great while I miss grunge before remembering that some folks just showed up dirty. Also there are far fewer folks wearing black lipstick these days.

3. Do you still listen to the music from your high school/college years on a regular basis?
Sometimes I spool up 90s songs at the gym or in the car, but mostly I find it playing in public spaces. Hearing "Sex and Candy" at the grocery store (the original or as a Muzak version) or NIN's "Closer" while at physical therapy have been a little disconcerting.

4. What hairstyle/hair color did/do you wear during high school/college?
In high school I pretty much wore my natural hair color, probably fried a little with Sun-In because we were not a family that could afford salon highlights. In college, I probably went through 20 different hairstyles, from long to bob to pixie. I tried the Rachel but on me it just looked like bad layering. Also my hair color went from bright blonde to deep auburn to dark black. An old acquaintance once joked that I would change my hair after every major life decision, and she wasn't wrong. It may have been my way of trying to combat the depression I was in.

5. What was/is "the cool thing to do" while in high school/college?
Gods, I have no clue what this would be, I was a social outcast. I came of age in a podunk area and being an outsider to them, wasn't able to fit in anywhere. I spent a lot of high school lunches hiding in my teachers' rooms as the cafeteria was brutal. I had my first child early in college/at age 19, which is an entirely different story unto itself, so I didn't have a typical experience there, either. That said, that is the age in which I discovered Livejournal, and met several lifelong friends. ♥

Famous

Apr. 29th, 2026 04:34 am
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Famous
BY NAOMI SHIHAB NYE

The river is famous to the fish.

The loud voice is famous to silence,
which knew it would inherit the earth
before anybody said so.

The cat sleeping on the fence is famous to the birds
watching him from the birdhouse.

The tear is famous, briefly, to the cheek.

The idea you carry close to your bosom
is famous to your bosom.

The boot is famous to the earth,
more famous than the dress shoe,
which is famous only to floors.

The bent photograph is famous to the one who carries it
and not at all famous to the one who is pictured.

I want to be famous to shuffling men
who smile while crossing streets,
sticky children in grocery lines,
famous as the one who smiled back.

I want to be famous in the way a pulley is famous,
or a buttonhole, not because it did anything spectacular,
but because it never forgot what it could do.

Back to Babylon

Apr. 28th, 2026 04:40 am
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Back to Babylon
by Viggo Mortensen

Accept and forget difference or desire that separates and leaves
us longing or repelled. Why briefly return to play in broken places,
to mock the ground, to collect infant shards, coins, fossils,
or the familiar empty canisters and casings that glint
from poisoned roots in the blackened dust?
We make bad ghosts, and are last to know or believe we too will fade,
just as our acrid smoke and those strange flakes of skin
and strands of hair will, into largely undocumented extinction.
Lie down, lie down; sleep is the best thing for being awake.
Do as we’ve always been told and done,
no backward glances or second thoughts,
leaving sad markers buried in the sand. Sleep now,
dream of children with their heads still on,
of grandmothers unburdening clotheslines at twilight,
of full kettles slow-ticking over twig embers.
Ignore boneless, nameless victims that venture out
on bitter gravel to claim remains while we rest.
Pay at the window for re-heated, prejudiced incantations.
Take them home and enjoy with wide-screen, half-digested,
replayed previews of solemn national celebration. Then sleep,
by all means; we’ll need all the energy we can muster
for compiling this generation’s abridged anthology
of official war stories, highlights of heedless slaughter,
to burnish our long and proud imperial tradition. At some point,
by virtue of accidentally seeing and listening,
we may find ourselves participating in our own rendering.
Few of our prey will be left alive enough to water the sun with their modest,
time-rubbed repetitions, to rephrase their particular, unifying laws.
Our version of events has already made its money back
in foreign distribution and pre-sales; all victory deadlines must be met.
It can get so quiet, with or without the dead watching
our constant deployments. From our tilted promontory we may see one last woman
scuffle away across cracked parchment of dry wash beneath us,
muttering to herself—or is she singing at us?
—as she rounds the sheared granite face and disappears
into a grove of spindly, trembling tamarisk shadows lining the main road.
We’ll soon hear little other than our breathing, as shale cools
and bats rise to feed, taking over from sated swallows.
Night anywhere is home, darkness a cue for turning inward,
quiet an invitation to review our expensive successes
before morning extraction from the twin rivers of our common cradle.

My Mother's Hats

Apr. 27th, 2026 04:32 am
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My Mother's Hats
BY ROBERT HEDIN

She kept them high on the top shelf,
In boxes big as drums—

Bright, crescent-shaped boats
With little fishnets dangling down—

And wore them with her best dress
To teas, coffee parties, department stores.

What a lovely catch, my father used to say,
Watching her sail off into the afternoon waters.

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