May showers bring the best of intentions, somehow

It's raining this morning, which is a big deal. It hasn't rained here in months. It just might have been in time to save our lawn. :-)

I feel better about everything now, or at least okay with living in uncertainty around certain issues--career and finances in particular.

I really need to work on taking better care of myself, being more consistent in my spiritual practice, in healthy eating, in exercise. I need to work on letting go, too, non-attachment.

And I need to keep writing.

addendum

What I meant more by 'non-attachment' (which is a loaded phrase, I think) is that...well, I've been getting pissed off because the house doesn't stay clean, because it's a constant battle against both entropy (in the form of things wearing out and/or breaking) and chaos (in the form of little people with dirty feet and hands and a penchant for dumping things out or throwing things on the floor). Sometimes I just feel so weary, doing the same things over and over, paying one bill only to discover five more, it seems like. Not knowing how to keep my head above water, contemplating returning to work and not knowing if that would ultimately make things easier or harder.

So when I write about not being attached, it's more in terms of not expecting the kitchen floor to stay clean. Not expecting to write every word of my first draft perfectly the first time. (*rueful grin*) Not expecting to have an amazingly wonderful time each time that I do get out of the house. Just...enjoying life as best I can, imperfections and all.

I don't mean detaching from people...at least, any more than I already do. And I don't really mean detaching from all of the opinions and ideals that make me me...while I think that it would be a valid spiritual/intrapersonal exercise, it's probably beyond me at this point. Although detaching from ideas that keep me separate from other folks, that wall me away, might be a very good thing.

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List up to ten (10) things you want to say to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation.' (Edit: It says to tag five people, but just play along if you want to.) (2nd edit: Some of these definitely apply to more than one of you. But I did have one of you in mind when I wrote each one.)


1. I really hope that I get to know you better, both because of your general nifty-ness and because you bring companionship and love to one of my closest friends.

2. I wish I could let you know how much I like you, but for whatever reason I can't. Yet. :-)

3. Thank you for being the other side of the coin.

4. I lack the words to say how much you mean to me, but you're still, always, one of the best parts of my life.

5. I love your quirky sense of humor and treasure the glimpses I've seen of it.

6. Keep writing. It is not an option. It is mandatory.

7. I'm really proud of the steps you've taken to reinvent yourself and establish a new career. You're an inspiration to me.

8. You're a recent addition to my friends list, and I always enjoy reading what you have to say. I admire your intelligence and your search very much.

9. I will 6raid your hair one day, just wait... :-)

10. Thanks for voicing so much of my experience in your journal. We're very different people--yet somehow you make me feel less alone in the world.