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I think I have Ellie's virus now. :-( It's not as bad as she had it, and I'm really hoping it doesn't become so.

Other than that, it's been a really wonderful day. The weather has cooled down to the point that we can have the windows open and a nice breeze blows through. gleefulfreak sent me a wonderful package at a time when my spiritual life really needed a lift. Ellie is doing better today, not quite eating solid foods yet but keeping liquids down.

Lately I think of the ego as a scared little animal, and the harder I try to rid myself of it, the tighter it holds on. Clearly, different measures are called for. I think I should love the scared, judgmental part of myself...but even that feels like an order somehow. Love yourself, dammit! And the poor, scared shivering animal just claws tighter and tighter...

But then L sent me a prayer shawl, books, and devi bhakti petals. :-)

Must lie down now...feeling very sick. I did have some anti-nauseal medicine from about a year ago so I've taken that (you don't want to know how) and I'm hoping it will keep the nausea at bay. Need rest.