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[falcongrrl]

I think I missed the memo about how Alvin and the Chipmunks and the zombie apocalypse are related. Though I'll definitely put earplugs on my wish list this holiday season.

Today's been a bad day, one of the worst in a while. Some of it may be that we all watched Bridge to Terabithia last night, though I handled it better last night than when I watched it Tuesday and bawled my way through the last fourth of it or so. I never read the book, so I had no idea what was coming. Given recent events, it was particularly intense and emotional for me. That said - it's still one of the best films I've seen in a while. Spoilers would have been welcomed though.

We watched it again (a recent rental) in part to kill time while waiting for it to get dark, as the kids were really impatient for fireworks. Despite rain off and on all day, we did manage to get together with our neighbors and pool our stash and light a bunch of stuff. Part of me feels a little thrill at every bright spark and crackle and boom. Part of me frets over environmental impact and consumerist greed and the whole 'what if someone loses an eye?'. But the thrilled part, the inner eleven-year-old, is definitely the largest part of me on the Fourth.

I love the Fourth of July. I don't agree with everything my country does, but I still have a deep love for the place. Like many loves, it's completely irrational and fierce and abiding. There are times I think of leaving, especially given the current administration's policies, but I know I would miss it terribly. For better or for worse, it's my home.

Standing out in the too-tall grass of our front yard, the smell of Off mixing with the tang of smoke in the air, my kids screaming, "Oh my god!" and "Wow!" every few seconds...it felt like life couldn't get any better.

But then today, I'm stumbling over myself, feeling sluggish and worn and just like giving up. Some of it's fatigue, some of it's likely PMS. But I've been sad today, sad and disgusted with myself...and I don't fully know why.

Comments

[monkeyman.livejournal.com]

*hugs* There aren't always reasons for emotions; and even when there are, they aren't always obvious. Besides, since you're actually a good, vivid, beautiful person ...

*hugs you again*

[nukewolf.livejournal.com]

Bridge To Terabithia was criminally misrepresented in the trailers and commercials. I caught it as an in-flight movie expecting some low-budget Narnia ripoff and got totally blindsided too.

[birdbard.livejournal.com]

I remember reading Terabithia with Gabe when he was about five, and being upset with it. I was unprepared for the emotions involved, I thought it was a "nice kids book". Definitely worth reading, we don't shield our kids from talking about death, etc. But you need to know what you're getting into.

That said, we haven't see the movie. I'm sure it would be good to see with Gabe and Shonah at some point, Carys when she's older. But not now.

And what's wrong with losing an eye?! Arrrrr? LOL...