how do we keep living with our hearts thrown wide open and survive it? How do we bare our souls to any and everyone, repeatedly, without feeling the fool?
i know these questions are semi-rhetorical, but they're deeply important to me. It can be difficult to balance a nature that longs to be completely free in loving, with the necessity for discernment and some reservedness. Because we don't want to become jaded and fearful, shielding ourselves from all risk and possibility. But there is, i believe, great value in being careful with one's own heart...
Knowing your own depth and your capacity to love easily and fully... it is important to honor yourself by choosing with great care, how much trust you will bestow upon any person. my own personal answer to the second question... the solution for me is... i do not bare my soul to just anyone. i know i cannot. And i believe it's fitting and proper to pick and choose.
That said, i personally throw my heart open wider than many are comfortable doing, i think. And why? Because... i very seriously accept that i will experience more pain. Occasionally, gut-wrenching, tearing pain. i accept this, because i like who i am when i'm openly adoring... and closing to protect myself too much, would cast a shadow over me always.
So. i know you didn't really ask for answers here, but i just felt compelled to give some response. i only hope i have not offended...
Also... i'm glad you'll try not to bark or bite. Because i would enjoy the chance to pet you and see you comforted. :-)
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Date: 2007-08-09 06:31 am (UTC)i know these questions are semi-rhetorical, but they're deeply important to me. It can be difficult to balance a nature that longs to be completely free in loving, with the necessity for discernment and some reservedness. Because we don't want to become jaded and fearful, shielding ourselves from all risk and possibility. But there is, i believe, great value in being careful with one's own heart...
Knowing your own depth and your capacity to love easily and fully... it is important to honor yourself by choosing with great care, how much trust you will bestow upon any person. my own personal answer to the second question... the solution for me is... i do not bare my soul to just anyone. i know i cannot. And i believe it's fitting and proper to pick and choose.
That said, i personally throw my heart open wider than many are comfortable doing, i think. And why? Because... i very seriously accept that i will experience more pain. Occasionally, gut-wrenching, tearing pain. i accept this, because i like who i am when i'm openly adoring... and closing to protect myself too much, would cast a shadow over me always.
So. i know you didn't really ask for answers here, but i just felt compelled to give some response. i only hope i have not offended...
Also... i'm glad you'll try not to bark or bite. Because i would enjoy the chance to pet you and see you comforted. :-)