Ow.

[falcongrrl]

Sunburned. I used the 50 SPF Coppertone Lotion, but I may not have applied it enough in advance. The kids ended up fine but I am a very very bright pink. Still, being in the water was relaxing.

Daniel is getting to the age where he doesn't know how to be around me. He can't be sweet to me, but he still wants to be around me. So he pokes me and splashes me and pretends to punch me. It's both exasperating and endearing (endearritating?) because I can see the dichotomy...and I know the really secretly wanting to be around me won't last forever.

I think that's what's behind their fighting sometimes, the fact that they both adore me so much and want my complete attention. It's incredibly sweet and difficult at the same time.

I have a doctor's appointment for Monday to talk about depression. Some symptoms have come back and I'm trying to be proactive. I know that might sound weird, while talking about my kids adoring me...but they're kids and I'm their mom. I'm not really stellar with the rest of the world these days, unfortunately. (And even my parenting has been pretty mediocre lately.) But hopefully the appointment will at least be a proactive step; the symptoms can be evaluated by someone more objective than I am and we'll go from there.

Dave's out of town for a week this coming week, starting Saturday, to help his mom while she has surgery. The timing sucks, but that happens. I need to come up with a Plan For The Week.

Yeah. Nothing yet, save Monday's appointment. But we'll see.

Comments

[goodjoan]

A dear friend of mine once called all those preteen/teen boy pokes and nudges and leans "Boy Hugs." They are still physical contact, without the ooey gooey lovey dovey stuff! It's what boys can do to be close without admitting they want to be close! When you think about those punches as "boy hugs" and silently enjoy them (because if you admit you like it or think it's 'loving' they'll stop!) you'll realize your boys really do love you quite a lot!

[ladyperegrine.livejournal.com]

*nod* Sometimes they hurt! But yeah, I am thankful because even in the midst of the preteen stuff starting, I know we love each other. :-)

[jenny_evergreen]

I'm sure that's exactly what's behind their fighting...it certainly was between my sister and I, and we fought CONSTANTLY and pretty much hated each other. Seriously, when my mother tries to come up with worse sibling relationships, she starts with Cain and Abel. So, yeah.

Also, I keep meaning to say that, about the exhaustion, you also need to make sure your iron level is good. Unless you eat a lot of iron rich food, you are likely to be low on iron, and that can cause tiredness. You can have your blood checked, or just start taking a supplement for a while and see if it makes a difference.

Here's hoping this week is much better than expected. *hugs*

[ladyperegrine.livejournal.com]

Can you think of anything that would have helped with you and your sister?

I take a multivitamin with iron every morning, but maybe I should switch to a prenatal? I had a blood test pretty recently to check my thyroid levels, but I don't *think* iron was included. Thanks for the suggestion.

[jenny_evergreen]

I'm still convinced that my mother favors my sister...It would take some huge changes to alter that belief after all this time and all the evidence. I wish I could be of more help.

Might be a good idea...worth a check, maybe. No problem!

[monkeyman.livejournal.com]

*hugs you hard* Always sending my thoughts your way. If there's anything I can do to make your week better, checking in or sending you things to read or whatever, you only have to say the word. :)

[ladyperegrine.livejournal.com]

You need a reader for the new scene, is that what you're saying? ;-)

More seriously, thank you. Yeah, any/all that would be awesome.

[monkeyman.livejournal.com]

Heh. Actually, you can't read that. Only my theatre company can see pieces before the new draft is done. :P

You know I'm here and you know I love you, that's what I'm sayin'.