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Jun. 30th, 2005 08:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
falcongrrlDave's dad is still feeling the same shortness-of-breath symptoms after the catheterization/stent insertion, and so Dave is going to go down and spend the weekend with his parents.
I feel helpless, wondering if this is the endgame, and if so, how best to support everyone through it. I just don't know. All I can do is keep doing what I'm doing, taking care of the kids and the house as best I can.
It doesn't feel like much.
I'm afraid that these health issues with my father-in-law may affect my AC plans. That's...so selfish, so shitty that I hesitate to write it. But it is on my mind. I've been looking forward to this particular weekend in Philly for a long time--wanted to go ever since I heard about it, back in October.
But this other is bigger emotionally than that, so much that I can't really wrap my mind around it.
******
Daniel just said, "I want to be cool. Am I a cool kid?"
I said, "Well, yeah, you're a really cool kid. But the important thing is to just be yourself, not worry so much if that's cool or not."
Daniel said, "But if I were even cooler, everyone in the world would want me."
(yeah, he used the subjunctive. *grin*)
That's the part we all struggle with, isn't it? How to be even cooler so everyone, anyone, will want us. *wry grin*. I wish I were immune, but I'm not.
******
My last poll post was an attempt to figure out what to keep public and what to make private. My journal feels whiny and boring even to me lately, and I'm looking for ways to be more interesting, entertaining. *grins* Cooler. Okay, maybe I should just be myself...or maybe I should hide more things behind the 'Private' setting, or, at the very least, an lj cut. That's the part I just haven't figured out yet. What to hide, what to reveal. If it matters.
I feel helpless, wondering if this is the endgame, and if so, how best to support everyone through it. I just don't know. All I can do is keep doing what I'm doing, taking care of the kids and the house as best I can.
It doesn't feel like much.
I'm afraid that these health issues with my father-in-law may affect my AC plans. That's...so selfish, so shitty that I hesitate to write it. But it is on my mind. I've been looking forward to this particular weekend in Philly for a long time--wanted to go ever since I heard about it, back in October.
But this other is bigger emotionally than that, so much that I can't really wrap my mind around it.
******
Daniel just said, "I want to be cool. Am I a cool kid?"
I said, "Well, yeah, you're a really cool kid. But the important thing is to just be yourself, not worry so much if that's cool or not."
Daniel said, "But if I were even cooler, everyone in the world would want me."
(yeah, he used the subjunctive. *grin*)
That's the part we all struggle with, isn't it? How to be even cooler so everyone, anyone, will want us. *wry grin*. I wish I were immune, but I'm not.
******
My last poll post was an attempt to figure out what to keep public and what to make private. My journal feels whiny and boring even to me lately, and I'm looking for ways to be more interesting, entertaining. *grins* Cooler. Okay, maybe I should just be myself...or maybe I should hide more things behind the 'Private' setting, or, at the very least, an lj cut. That's the part I just haven't figured out yet. What to hide, what to reveal. If it matters.